It’s been a long time since I’ve written, right?
Well… there has been a lot of stuff that happened to me, which matured me as a person. I tried to write journal by hand which really worked for some time. Now I’m back.
What happened?
My father passed away. It was very sudden for me. Maybe because I was still hoping for him to come back. I thought it wasn’t fair that he could just disappear from my life like that after traumatizing me so much. It’s been like 4 months, I thought my tears have dried up already; and that I’ve accepted his death. But still here I am, shedding tears ever since I’ve started typing. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to write about him without crying. Maybe one day I will, maybe I won’t in this life time.
So, my outlook of life has changed drastically after experiencing a close one’s death. I don’t see the point of living at times if I’m ever going to die like that. Sometimes, I feel like I’m running out of time to do all the things I want. Sometimes, I just dwell in daydreams so that I could enjoy the things I want without having to put effort.
Honestly, I feel like time is passing by like a flood and I’m stuck in past.
Well, today I took a tiny step to travel along the time. That is this journaling.
Soon, I’ll be taking lots of steps. Please be with me in this journey.
Till then
Preetha~
P.S.
Please enjoy this doodle that I created today.
